Hmmm... What's the point???

I am wondering what is the point of staying up late... A cup of mocha on Friday night kept me awake till 6am in the morning... Woke up at 10am the same morning... I am still brooding over that cup of mocha till now... Sigh... As a result, my brain did not function properly at all on Saturday... Was supposed to do my assignment... Got the inspiration of the whole framework while lying on the bed... After typing the whole framework out, I got stuck at the "overview" which is the first point... I took the whole day to think of what I should write and ended up I managed to type out 100 out of the 2500 words required for my assignment... Stupid brain... Seems to be damaged by that cup of mocha... Got really fed up and pissed off with myself... Some innocent people even got scolded by me for no apparent reason... Sorry... Lack of sleep leads to bad and uncontrolled temper... This is what mummy always said, "火气大"... I am going to stress the importance of SLEEP again... The equation is further expanded... SLEEP = BEAUTY + GOOD TEMPER ----> LOVABLE.... Hahaha... Michelle will be laughing at my nagging virtue again... I really mean well for you girls... Please understand my intention...

Since I can't get anything done due to my useless brain, I slept quite early last night... 12am is considered early, right??? Guess what, I managed to sleep in till 12pm this afternoon... Woohoo... Paid back my sleep debt and I am in super high spirit today... Restrict myself from signing in MSN which will made me type more words in MSN rather than my assignments... Sorry Michelle... I did it... I managed to find the form to do my assignment... For your information, this is the first assignment I am doing for this semester... Starting is always not easy... I believe I will be able to maintain the form of doing assignments really soon... In addition, I found the remedy which can keep me awake the whole night... Wahaha... God bless me... Amitabha...

P/S: Sorry Michelle... Didn't mean to put aeroplane on you... Promised to chat with you when you are back from the voluntary work... Sorry... Was busy with my assignment... Will make it up to you soon... =)

Quote of the day... "Stop being so persistent"... (小气鬼, 2008)

Take care, miss ya and love ya... Back to assignment... Muacksss...

Shi Hui~~

=D

It's almost 2.30am and I am still wide awake... Should I feel happy??? This is initially my intention to be able to stay awake in the middle of the night... That is the reason I chose to take a nap at 5.30pm... I had a cup of super satisfying mocha a few hours ago... My favourite of all the coffees I had before... Now I have the remedy to keep me awake... But then again, I feel really bad for sleeping "early" in the morning...

For everyone's information, the mark on my face has gone off... Hence, I do not want any more pimples... But then again, I won't be sleeping early for the next few weeks... Hahaha... Opportunity cost again... Sigh... Of course assignments are more important now... Pimples are secondary... As long as my hands are obedient and not itchy, everything will be fine...

I have something to share... Have anyone ever ponder how important friends are to you??? Where do they stand in your heart??? On the other hand, what about your bf/gf??? Where does he/she stand in your heart again??? If you were to tell me that you place your friends above your bf/gf, there's another question to be thought about... If one day, one of your friends come over to you and asked you to let him/her have your bf/gf, will you be able to do it as you said friends have a higher place in your heart??? Hahaha... Have a good thought over it... I have already given a thought about it and what I gave myself is a smile again... :D I find myself sillier and sillier... Even I am amused by myself now... Sweat... =.=

Gosh... I am still very very sober... Back to my articles... Take care, miss ya and love ya... Muacksss...

Shi Hui~

Attention to the girls!!!

Girls out there... Here is a piece of advice... Please sleep early if possible... As early as you can sleep even if it's 9pm...

As a consequence of sleeping quite late for the past two weeks, I had a big pimple on my face since Friday... Out of anger as it is just located on my middle right cheek, I decided to do something about it last night... When I woke up this morning, I almost shouted when I looked at the mirror... I AM DISFIGURED!!! There's actually a mark on my face... It's something like a wound getting dry... Remember the location of the pimples on my face??? It's so obvious... Gosh... And guess what??? I had a presentation today as well... God bless me... Imagine I was standing in front of the classroom with a black patch on my face... Just like a big mole... Sweat...

I wondered why on earth I did not want to sleep early for the last two weeks... If I get my assignment done, then the pimple is considered nothing... It's in fact quite worth it... But then, I did not get anything done... That made me even furious... Now I know why sleeping is so important to girls... SLEEP = BEAUTY... That's the equation... Hahaha...

Hope all the girls stay happy n pretty... Take care and miss ya.... Muackssss...

Shi Hui~

Hi from the new Shi Hui... :)

Today is a gift which means it is the mystery that I am awaiting for since yesterday... Last night I slept really late... Went for kebab with darlings and hang out at their place till quite late... But then I still wake up earlier than I expected... The feeling of waking up is really wonderful this morning... Had my breakfast and started to do some laundry after that... 1st round of laundry, my Animal hoodie... 2nd round of laundry, all my dark-coloured clothing... 3rd round of laundry, my bedsheet and duvet cover... Vacuumed my room and wiped all the dust away... The feeling is simply too great... Everything seems so clean and new... Just like me... The Shi Hui today feels so different from yesterday... I am the new Shi Hui today... Hi everyone...

When I was thinking back on the whole incident, I actually gave myself a smile... I am surprised... I am supposed not to think about it anymore but somehow I have the courage to reflect on the whole incident... Who told me what??? I remembered very clearly... What lesson should I take from the whole episode??? I am very sure about it... It feels amazing... I guess I am never that awake and sober before today...

Love indeed is a powerful tool... It can make he/she tries to shoulder all the other party's blames... Believe me... If someone loves you, he/she is willing to die for you... You will never be wrong in his/her eyes... I experienced it myself...

As for friends, in order not to offend any party in the argument, it is always advisable to say "Both are at fault..." But I don't expect much either as I understand their dilemma... No worries on that part...

As for your soul mate and old buddy, they will be there to back you up all the way... In their opinion, you will never be wrong... As for me, no doubt I want everyone to back me up... So, this category of people suits me best... I like to listen to their advice because I will never ever be wrong in any way... And the most important part is, I do not have to say sorry at all...

End of my reflection... No offence from this post... I am just voicing out my own opinion on the whole episode... Who loves me and who doesn't, I am clearer than anyone else... You guys are forever missed by me still... Don't worry...

Take care and miss ya... Muacksss...

Shi Hui~

Wake up the devil in me!!!

It marks the beginning of a new chapter of my life... Yesterday was indeed a foul day for me... Created a new record... Crying marathon... Cried for 7hours with 2hours break in between... Anyone up for the challenge??? And now my eyes are painful... Sweat... It seems that the tap is broken... I wanted to turn it off so badly but then it can't be turned off... Hmmm... But I manage to find a repairman just now... You guys should know who he is... Everything is settled.. I cried not for anyone else... I cried for myself... I am mourning for the demise of the old Shi Hui... The angelic soft-hearted and easily being bullied Shi Hui... Anyone disagree or feel like vomitting??? Hahaha... Don't worry... She won't come and haunt you... She wouldn't appear so easily anymore...

I realised how useless I am now... The moment something cropped up, all I know is to cry... Nothing else... The next thing is to grab the phone and make a call...Somehow after the phone call, I will know what to do... There is someone giving me the strength and solution all the time... I am being protected and pampered to the extreme now...

By the way, thanks for those who are there lending me your ears... Really appreciate it... You guys are simply wonderful... Life with you guys around are much more colourful indeed... A friend in need is a friend indeed...

I learnt a lot today... I got screwed from morning till night... It's time for me to wake up... I feel much much better now... Going to have a tight sleep tonight... Yesterday was history, today is a gift and tomorrow is a mystery... I am awaiting for my mystery... Thanks again... You guys know who you are...

Good night... Take care and miss ya...

Shi Hui~

Nightmare..@_@

Sweat... I have been doing my learning logs for the past few hours... It is actually a reflection of my lectures, workshops and independent studies... All these are equivalent of digging out history... I have to think of how do I feel, what problem I encountered, what have I learnt, etc... Anything you can name it... Sounds very silly... But this is what I am supposed to do... I have to hand in those entries towards the end of the semester and churn out a 1500 words report for the reflective logs... Gosh... I hate this module and yet I am doing so much for it... Reflecting so much on everything... I am going to have nightmares tonight... The module booklet will be waving at me together with the lecture slides flying around... I am going nuts soon... I can't even recall certaint things... Let alone remembering how do I feel at that particular point of time... Can I just write BORING in every entry??? Hahaha...

Back to my learning logs... Take care and miss ya...
Muacksss...

Shi Hui~

A Quick One... :D

It has been quite a few days since I dropped a few lines here... This week classses are as usual... As boring as usual... On the other hand, I am as lazy as ever... Hahaha... I managed to get something done too... Some small little tiny stuff... Major stuff needs more motivation... Sigh... I couldn't find motivation in Bristol... How come???

Next week, I am having a presentation... Hopefully everything goes well... Not going to mention about my assignments... I am sure you guys are tired listening to me repeating the same thing... Even I feel tired also... So, in order to make myself not tired, I have to get rid of those annoying stuff as soon as possible... Wish me heaps of luck...

Hmmm... I am trying to stay away from city centre... Too many things in my mind now... I want to learn to meditate now... I want to control my emotions well and able to control my mind well... My housemate lent me a few books on meditation... I am quite interested... I have been emo-ing for no apparent reason very easily lately... Meditation may be something good for me... Hahaha...

Not forgetting to say "Congrats" to May Joan... Found her happiness... Wish her be as sweet as Chee Siang and Ci Pei or even sweeter also never mind... Hahaha...

I seriously seriously need to pull up my socks before I regret... Lately, I notice some improvements in me... Hope I can keep it up and have more improvements... I still want to graduate next year and go back Malaysia...

One more thing, for those who have just finished mugging, "HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!"... For those who are still striving, "ALL THE BEST!!!"... Take care and miss ya... Muackssss...

Shi Hui~

Zoo Trip on 14112008... =D

First and foremost... Happy 21st Birthday darling Muhe... Hehe...

Today I finally go to Bristol Zoo... Yay... FINALLY... The zoo here is really cool... What got me really excited are the seals and penguins... But somehow I am quite disappointed... I didn't get to see horse, tiger, pig, giraffe and elephant... Wonder why Bristol doesn't have such animals... No doubt I see a lot varieties of monkeys, insects, frogs, rats and tortoises... Overall, the zoo trip is fun... Imagine 5 girls whose aged average 20 visited the zoo... Hahaha...

After the zoo trip, we went to Shanghai Nights to have dinner... Oh my goodness... The food there is simply delicious... I can't believe that 4 girls can actually eat so much... We really had a lot a lot... The dim sum is nice... The roast duck is nice... It made me drool now although I am still very very full... Hehe... Where will be our next destination then??? Wahaha... Can't wait can't wait!!!

Time flies... My break is coming to an end... Monday my class will resume as usual... I have been really enjoying a lot this break... Hahaha... Fully recharged now... Time to find back my concentration to do assignments...

Take care and miss ya... Muackssss...

Shi Hui~

I should not...

I made the decision of telling... But it seems a WRONG decision... I seem a failure again this time... I hate myself!!! :(

Shi Hui~

Should I or should I not???

Should I say sorry for telling a lie??? If I say out the truth, the person will be very very disappointed with me... But I feel bad for hiding the truth... Arghhh... I am in great dilemma now although the whole event is over... If I say sorry, I have to tell the truth... If I keep mum, the whole episode seems over but I am guillt-stricken now... Gosh... How now???

I am so worried that the person will be really really angry and mad at me... I seriously don't want that to happen... Haiz... :S

Shi Hui~

@_@

Oops... Can I pose you guys some questions???

Do I really seem to be enjoying a lot in Bristol???

Wee Meng said that of me... Michelle said that of me... My cousin said that of me... If one person says it, maybe he/she is wrong... When 3persons say it, high possibility it can't be wrong, right??? Everytime someone asked me, "How are you?" and before I answer their question, they will be saying, "You must be enjoying yourself there..." Hey... You are supposed to wait for my answer instead of answering it on my behalf... But WAIT!!!

When I am down and crying alone, do u guys know??? When I miss my family and friends badly, all I can do is only seeing them through webcam or called them... I miss the touch... But I don't deny the fact that I enjoy the shopping, scenery and environment here except for the "housewife" part where I have to do housework, buy groceries and cook... Not to forget about the cold crazy weather which experiences PMS too... The weather here is sometimes too emo... Unpredictable...

The next question is, do I seem happier in Bristol than I was in Malaysia??? Chan said that I sound cheerful in MSN... She is even more "geng"... She can feel my feelings through those words that I typed in MSN... Hahaha...

Somehow Shi Hui seems to be more suitable to stay in Bristol... When I was back in Malaysia, no one ever said that I am enjoying my life... People hardly said that I am cheerful... Distance makes the heart grows fonder... You guys must be missing me a lot... Wakaka... I do really enjoy the feeling of being missed by others... I do really really enjoy the feeling of being cared and concerned by others... Hehe... I am honest this time... I am a normal girl too... I do feel touched easily...

Anyway, I miss you guys a lot a lot a lot too... Haha.. Take care...

Muacksss...

Shi Hui~

Bristol Day Trip at 10112008...

Hmmm... We (Huay Jiun, Chi Ying, Siok Kuan and Shi Hui) were supposed to go to the Bristol Zoo and Suspension Bridge today... I was really really excited about the trip... Somehow it has been quite long since I last visited the zoo... Haha... Bristol Zoo will be way different from the zoo we have in Malaysia, ok??? And I have never been to the Suspension Bridge before... However, due to some unforeseen circumstances such as weather and blurness, we were unable to make it to the Bristol Zoo today... The zoo trip has been postponed to Friday... *fingers crossed* We will be able to make it, hopefully...

Overall, the trip was fun except for poor Siok Kuan who could not join us to the Suspension Bridge and of course the thai food dinner because she has to work... Luckily, we managed to have Nando's for lunch... Wakaka... Nice food and great fun... Nevertheless, our dear organiser, Huay Jiun brought us to a few unexpected places... Never in our plan to pay a visit at Cribbs Causeway... But we were there... Never in our plan to have Nando's at Cribbs Causeway too... Yet, we had our lunch there... Wahaha...

However, really grateful for such a wonderful trip... Thanks darling... Muackssss...

I am waiting for Friday's arrival... I am going to the zoo!!!

Take care and good night... Miss ya everyone...

Muackssss...

Shi Hui~

T.T

What is wrong with me??? I feel like crying so much... I really really really feel like crying... I cried yesterday... I cried just now... And yes, I am crying now too... I feel vexed and frustrated... Somehow I seem to have a lot of things in my mind... Where and how should I start??? Where is the starting point and where is the ending point??? God knows...

Can I hide under my blanket and allow myself to have a big cry for the second time in my life??? I am not homesick... I called mummy two days ago and chatted with her for almost an hour... Everything is good and everyone is fine back at home...

I admit I am easily influenced by people around me... Their mood affects my mood but never in such an extent... Knowing Chew is down but having no idea on what should I do made me really bad... Gloating over someone's failure somehow made me feel bad too...

I sudddenly feel so lonely and empty... I need a shoulder for me to cry on... Xiao Qi Gui, you told me that tears should be reserved for happy occassion and I should not shed my tears easily... Yet now I am wasting my tears on unnecessary stuff and the amount is huge this time...

After almost 2months I am in Bristol, today is the day when I cried so bitterly... This is not homesick... Is it pressure that I am venting out now??? I hope it is... At the very least, I know what went wrong... Crying for no apparent reason is damn silly... And not having anyone by your side is pathetic... YES!!! I AM SILLY AND PATHETIC NOW...

Shi Hui~

I plead guilty AGAIN!!!

I am in the mood to blog now... Somehow I had a very satisfying lunch just now... First porridge in Bristol... That's not the VIP yet... The VIP is... *drum rolls please* "cai bu egg"... You guys should know what's that... It's salted carrot if I am not mistaken... And it tastes great with porridge... Hahaha... I received a packet last week from Malaysia... It's from my 3rd sis actually... She bought it for me to fry with eggs... So sweet of her... A simple meal can make me in the best of mood... Haha...

By the way, can I take back what I said in my last post??? One shopping trip during the one week study week does not seem enough..."One shopping trip only during independent study week... The rest of the week will be my confinement at home... Deal!!! Hahaha..." THIS STATEMENT IS NO LONGER VALID!!! IT'S VOID!!! I am going back on my words again... I know... I PLEAD GUILTY... I want to go Birmingham... I want to go Bath... Gosh... I want to go Cribbs Causeway... I want to go Bristol Zoo... I want to go Cabot Circus... Eesh... This is frustrating enough... Can someone tell me how to control not to think of shopping so much???

I want to buy bag, shoes, shirts, pants, jackets and hoodies which I have them all... I miss spending in Ringgit Malaysia... At the very least, I don't have to think about converting... And I have my sis to sponsor me once in a while... I miss my jie... *sob sob* She'll buy me bag and shoes... She'll pay for my meal... I should have really knock my head for daydreaming too much... Shopping can really make me go mad... Sigh... I need to divert my attention!!!

Take care and miss ya...
Muacksss...

Shi Hui~

Tomorrow is my big day!!!

Gosh... I am feeling nervous now... Pre-big day syndrome??? Hahaha... Don't worry... It's not my wedding tomorrow... It's the submission date for my dissertation... At this point of time, this is far more important than my marriage... It's a 40 credit module which can have a great impact on my degree classification...

I am worried about it since Friday... Serves me right for doing it at the last minute... Finally, my topic has been finalised... *fingers crossed* Please do not reject my topic... I will have heart attack if my topic is being rejected... I cannot imagine the amount of journal I have to go through again... I have to sit in front of the laptop from morning till night facing the PDF files and repeating certain words for hundreds of times...

I hope tomorrow will be my day... Once my topic is accepted, I am going to work hard on it... AMA and IF assignments, I'll be coming over to you soon... Please be patient... I haven't forget about you... Better pull up my socks now or else there gone my Christmas trip... Next week is independent study week... Sigh... Time flies... Half of the semester gone just like that and I am still honeymoon-ing...

One shopping trip only during independent study week... The rest of the week will be my confinement at home... Deal!!! Hahaha...

Take care everyone and miss ya... To those who are rushing for assignments, tests and exams, all the best... God bless us...

Shi Hui~

I miss... =(

I MISS MALAYSIA!!! I miss the sun... I miss the food... I miss my hot chocolate... I miss the weather... I miss the people there... I miss the yumcha session... I miss my bed... I miss my house... I miss mummy... I MISS EVERYTHING!!!

I don't like the weather now... The temperature is driving me nuts... It's forever so cold even with four layers of clothing... This is when I didn't even step out of my room yet... I didn't even open my window... And there's heater some more...

With the heater on without opening the window, my nose will bleed... But if I open the window, I'll be freezing... What should I do???

My hands crack, my waist cracks, my thigh cracks... This happens even when I apply lotion everyday... Tell me what I should do again??? At the very least, I don't experience all these when I am back in Malaysia... This is plain torturing... I am miserable enough... I am suffering now...

It's not officially winter yet... Will I be able to survive through winter??? God bless me... Now only I realise how bad I am in taking care of myself... Been having bad cough lately... Sigh... I miss the Shi Hui back in Malaysia who does not fall sick easily and does not have any skin problem...

SHI HUI, PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH... =(

Shi Hui~