T.T

What is wrong with me??? I feel like crying so much... I really really really feel like crying... I cried yesterday... I cried just now... And yes, I am crying now too... I feel vexed and frustrated... Somehow I seem to have a lot of things in my mind... Where and how should I start??? Where is the starting point and where is the ending point??? God knows...

Can I hide under my blanket and allow myself to have a big cry for the second time in my life??? I am not homesick... I called mummy two days ago and chatted with her for almost an hour... Everything is good and everyone is fine back at home...

I admit I am easily influenced by people around me... Their mood affects my mood but never in such an extent... Knowing Chew is down but having no idea on what should I do made me really bad... Gloating over someone's failure somehow made me feel bad too...

I sudddenly feel so lonely and empty... I need a shoulder for me to cry on... Xiao Qi Gui, you told me that tears should be reserved for happy occassion and I should not shed my tears easily... Yet now I am wasting my tears on unnecessary stuff and the amount is huge this time...

After almost 2months I am in Bristol, today is the day when I cried so bitterly... This is not homesick... Is it pressure that I am venting out now??? I hope it is... At the very least, I know what went wrong... Crying for no apparent reason is damn silly... And not having anyone by your side is pathetic... YES!!! I AM SILLY AND PATHETIC NOW...

Shi Hui~